Since my spoken words are failing me right now, I'll try to write. Sadly, I don't turn to prayer or scripture as easily as I should in these moments of silence. Most often, I just sort of swim in my own thoughts for a while--pondering the "he said...she said...what if...then that..." possibilities a dozen more times. But even in stunned silence, I still trust that I can find an opportunity to grow, so I am trying to turn to prayer more wholeheartedly tonight. And ironically, I find that even my prayers are sort of lacking words right now. All I can come up with is this:
I guess this is a pretty good list to be stuck on. I'll pray that I handle this situation with love, and that others will too, and that people might benefit from an environment that treats everyone in a better way. I'll pray that the result of this situation will lead to joy for everyone involved, not just convenience or a temporary solution, but a chance to actually pursue joy. I'll pray that I find peace in the midst of the turmoil, and that any decisions result in peace for everyone involved. And I think that's as far as I will go for now. I shouldn't rush through these; love, joy, and peace are powerful words to dwell on. Just one more way that I can see--at least a little--encouragement in "the silence between the notes."