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To sleep, to dream. Again.

Poems are a lot like dreams.No.  Poems are a lot like nightmares. 
Until you've been broken by one,  You'll never understand how deeply  It can sting, burn, and glow. 
And you'll never understand the scars left behind By nightmares and poems.  Beautifully unique scars.  Uniquely hideous scars. 
Nightmares are like poems.  For a time, you live inside them, Surrounded by their reality, For better or for worse, Fighting against the sting, Or giving into the burn, Or basking in the glow Of their truths. And their lies.  Until you wake up one day and realize  No one else sees them, or cares. 
Nightmares are a lot like poems.  When it's too dark to find your way out.

Diagnosis: Nightmare sleep disorder with significant Alpha waveintrusions

One month after my sleep study and here's what I've learned: Sleep really is about quality not quantity! 
If YOU also struggle with a potential sleep disorder, I strongly encourage you to ask your doctor about a sleep study. Yes, it's almost impossible to get a "normal" night's sleep with all those wires pasted to your body, but the doctors are still able to interpret the results in a way that sheds light on your situation. So far, here are the most important things I've learned about my sleep struggles:
1) I wake up about every 2.5 minutes, or over 130 times in a 5 hour sleep. Even though most of these are for less than 15 seconds at a time, that's still enough disruption to keep my body from actually resting and healing like it should.   2) I reach REM sleep about 30 minutes later than most people, and then my nightmares begin. About 4 times per night.  3) Alpha wave intrusion also means my brain starts acting like it's awake when it should be …